I didn’t get any sleep at all, all these thoughts are going through my head. I’m thinking of re-organizing my whole room. I’m planning on selling my electric guitar, I already posted some ads on the internet. I need some moolah to buy a full-body mirror, a study table and a wifi router. I don’t like counting on my mom to buy me stuff like these, I feel like I’m overly depending on them or something. I’ve always felt like that, I don’t know if it’s just me or if it’s because of the whole “I’m the oldest child and I feel like I have to help at an early age” bit. You see my mom started working at the early age of 9 and she went to Japan when she turned 13 years old. Since then, she has always reminded me of how early she has helped her family and how I should do the same. It kinda puts a lot of pressure on me, I don’t know how to feel about it. I really don’t know. I unconsciously apply it to my life though, making money out of cupcakes and working hard for a performing arts scholarship. I don’t really need to do these things I think about it, but I guess it’s how I’ve always been taught. I get frustrated about it sometimes, but it helps me depend on myself. It won’t be too hard when I go out there alone ‘cause I know I can carry myself and handle things independently. So I guess it’s OK. I don’t know what I’m saying, I need sleep.